heart break

once there was a boy and girl who were in love. when they hugged for the first time, they never wanted to let go. so they decided not to. they loved each moment of the embrace, smiling, laughing, and dreaming of their forever together...but then the boy became tired, he did not want to hug anymore. he saw his friends playing games and kissing girls. and then he saw a new girl and wanted to kiss her..
so what???? and, and so he let go of the hug and followed the other girl, leaving his first love alone and cold. the girl began to cry, and so she created rain and in a jealous outrage, she created lightening and thunder. to this day, the curse of her storm lives on in every broken heart.. = '(




everything is changing now : people are forgetting who they are, everyone wants to fit in and when they finally get the chance to, they leave the people they care about for the people that don't care about them.


='(

why am I so afraid to lose you, when you're not ever mine?

heyya!! hari ini gue mau cerita, ya kaya judulnya "why am I so afraid to lose you, when you're not ever mine?"
nanya-nanya didalem hati, kenapa sih gue makin hari makin kepikiran? -_-
iya gue jujur kangen bgt sm dia BANGET! rasanya mau ribut kalo dia bilang "ah masa?" fffff u!
ok galebay rasa kangen gue smpe kebawa mimpi......heyouuu-h!! itu udh gajelas bgt mimpinya.
intinya gue kangen bro sm lo! ya lo pikir dong lo udh BERDUA gue msh SENDIRI. lo buang gue gitu aja pas gue bener-bener butuh lo. nyele-kitt

LABIL ya tau lah gue itu labil bgt satu hari mungkin bisa 3 perasaan yg gue rasa-_-capedeeeee.
pagi nya seneeeeeeeeeng bgt, siang nya gamikirin lu bener2 gamikirin....sorenya galau gara-gara kangen. malemnya? mikir kenapa gue bs segitu nya sm lo-____-
yagitu aja tiap hari.

SATU PERTANYAAN BUAT LO
lo menjauh dari gue karena apa? apa karna lo pingin gue bs move on. lo tau ga? cara kaya gini gak ampuh sm sekali. dgn cara lo yg gini lo sama aja punya niat nyakitin gue.
please ya gue cuma butuh perhatian lo yg dulu!!! 

Memories Of My Grandpa

Grandpa..How are you in heaven?
You know..I miss you so much..
I miss your smile that of authorization
remaind...when I was child..
You always accompany me..
Invite me to know this beautiful world..
you're always patient answer my question..
And until now..I still feel warmth your finger hold my hand..
Your ceprices voice still hear in my ears
Remaid..a beautiful twilight which matchless if we sit together
Remind...when you're still by my side, holding and squeezing me..
Remind the time when we're smile together ☺

Grandpa....You accompany me..
Until I can be a succes person..
Our memories which can't to forget..
Really make me washed away in our memories..
Remind... when you're getting older and older...
you're always smile and laugh, although sometimes we forget you..
When you ask..
No one answer..
You're alone without anyone..
When you're getting tired, weak and need us..
Without deliverate we let you alone..
All the tears are falling down
When I let you go..
If I can...
I will kiss your hand one more and for the last time...
Grandpa...I am very regret..
Can't accompany you until your last day..
Now..I just can pray to you..

Grandpa..
I hope you're rest in peace..
I miss you!☺

feel so lonely:(

yea heee blog, udh lama gak posting. kelas SEMBILAN sibuk, ini baru kelas SEMBILAN.

damn! zzzzzzet sssssuuuuuutt sittttttt yok gajelas. gue pikir-pikir gue hidup lama-lama gajelas, teman hilang, sahabat pergi, adek kelas minta perhatian, keluarga bermasalah, gue pikir skrg udh gaada satu org disisi gue. gakaya dulu yang selalu ada org yang mau dengerin cerita gue, nanyain kabar gue dari pagi sampe malem, dari gue bangun tidur sampe tidur lagi, dari mood gue kacau balau sampe mood gue bener-bener bagus.

YA! sekarang orang kaya gitu bener-bener gue butuhin, gatau pacar, teman, sahabat, atau mungkin kaka kakaan-_-! kayanya emg gue kurang diperhatiin, sakit aja ditelen sendiri. gue masih umur 14 tahun tapi rasanya kaya udh kebanyakan beban, masalah disana sini di dalam keluarga diluar keluarga. GUE BUTUH SESEORANG YANG BISA NUNTUN GUE, NEMENIN GUE, MERHATIIN GUE, TAU SIFAT GUE, NGERTI KEADAAN GUE.

bener!!! gue emosi lama-lama hidup mau mati kalo dipikir 14 thn pikiran nya udh banyak..gada temen sahabat atau apalah yg bisa bener-bener ngertiin perasaan gue.
argh knpsi apa mereka sibuk? apa mereka gatau ada gue yg slalu nanti-nanti perhatian dri mereka? apa mereka punya lebih banyak masalah dari gue? apa gue gakpenting? apa mereka lebih milih pasangan mereka dri gue? apa mereka lebih milih temen baru nya dari gue? apa uang lebih berharga dari gue? APA? APA? APAAAAAAAA?!!! *sigh!
gue butuh kalian! bukan benda yang gue butuhin untuk saat ini! tapi komunikasi. ngertiin gue untuk saat ini. masalah gue bukan masalah sepele. dan harusnya kalian bantuin gue untuk nyelesain masalah ini.

 ;-(

``confused``

heyia! bakal ngepost gapenting krn hari ini bener-bener bosen pangkat seribu.

1. salah gaksih kalo kita suka sm org trs kita kaya yg perhatian gtu sm dia? ya dia juga perhatian balik sih ke     gue. tapi gue gatau dia perhatian ke gue karena apa. apa karna kasian sm gue. atau apa mungkin.

2. sebenernya kalo berharap kelebihan itu boleh gaksih? yaaa masalahnya dia ngasih harapan. gimanadong? kalo gadipake ya sayang.

3. salah gaksih kalo gue disini berusaha untuk jadi yang dia mau? ya walaupun gue gabisa ngerubah sikap gue yg jutek sm cowo. haaaaaaaaa gabisa.

4. salah gaksih kalo gue tuh pingin dia slalu ngobrol sm gue? ya walaupun gue tau gue cukup mengganggu.

5. salah gaksih kalo suatu saat gue gapercaya ini berakhir kaya apa yg gue pingin? ya dia juga gak ada respon lebih sama gue. 

6. salah gaksih kalo suatu saat gue berenti untuk ngarepin dia? ya dia gak ada perlakuan yang seharusnya ada dan dibuktiin ke gue.

apa selamanya bakal jadi temen? apa selamanya jadi tempat curhat? apa selamanya jadi tempat dimana gue prnah ngarepin dia. oke jawaban nya gaada. 

I'll be the water you need 
in the desert land
Just to let you know you'll always have my hand 
I'll be the woman you need to be a better man

So you'll always know

NOW!!!!!

stay or move on?